Tae on life after death

So we were walking home from school yesterday and Tae ran across the street without me.  There were no cars, thankfully, but it scared the crap out of me and made me mad because he knows better.  He just thinks he runs things...  Anyway, I was explinaing to him that he could get hit by a car because he doesn't always see things that Mommy sees.  He could get really hurt or even worse, die.  Here is kinda how it went:

Mommy: "Tae, you cannot do these things by yourself.  You have to wait for Mommy.  What if a car hit you?  Mommy wouldn't be able to have you anymore."

Tae: "Okay Mommy.  Sorry, Mommy.  Mommy?"

Mommy: "Yes, Tae?" (kinda annoyed tone)

Tae: "If I was gone from here though, I would be with God in heaven."

Mommy: "Well, um, ya, but um, Mommy wants you here."

How do you answer that?  Heaven is a better place to be.  But selfishly I want my baby with me.  Loosing Tyson this summer has brought a whole new outlook to our lives.  Always thinking about what is ultimately ahead of us.  I am so glad that my 3-year-old is realizing the same things.  Love you Tyson.

Remembering

Life had been a little rough the last couple of weeks.  Like you might know we lost our dear cousin, Tyson Larson, 3 weeks ago tomorrow.  What a weird thing.  The night before his death Lindsey, Tyson's incredible wife, happened to bring her camera to one of their basketball games.  She has some incredible pictures of Tyson playing.  Big smiling face, healthy body, just so full of life.  Then the next day he is gone.  It is such a hard thing to think through.  Why Tyson?  He was so young and healthy.  His poor wife, his poor mother and father, his poor siblings.  And yet they are all so strong.  It is inspirational. 

I am just going to say it, I don't know how you can get through a tragedy like that and not cling to the only thing that makes sense.  God is good.  God is sovereign.  God reigns supreme and does things that we don't always understand.  We also know that God never gives us more than we can handle, so he obviously knows that Lindsey is going to be okay, He will take care of her.  His mother, father, sister, and brother are all going to be okay.  He has a higher purpose.  Perhaps it is to call a few more to His own.  Perhaps it is to make a few people think about their lives.  How can you live through this and not.

I know this is a little scattered, but my thoughts are so scattered when I think about it.  Today, like everyday, I am remembering Tyson.  I am remembering his life.  I am remembering God's love for us even when we don't understand.  I love Tyson.  He was one of the most amazing people you could ever know.  I know that looking back at his life and the way he lived it has inspired me to live better.  I believe in Christ as my Savior, but do I live it?  Would someone know that by the way I live?  If the topic comes up, do I shy away?  Where are my standards, how am I raising my boys?  The list of questions can go on and on. And after thinking about it, God had to take someone like Tyson, such an awesome example, for people to think about their lives.  I don't know how many people would be reevaluating things if it was me to go.  WOW I have a few things to change. 

But praise God that we can change and that he knows we are but dust.  Even as I am writing this I am realizing how I put other things before my relationship with God. 

I didn't get to see his body before they closed the casket.  I feel like I would have wanted to.  Because like my brother put it, that wasn't Tyson.  That was just his tent.  It is the tent that his soul used while gracing us on this earth.  Tyson is up there with Jesus without sin.  Smiling his big smile.  Loving people even more than he loved people here.  What a crazy thing to think about. 

I still miss Ty.  It is hard to get back to reality.  It is hard to think that he is really gone.  I still love Ty.  What an incredible person he was, I feel such a pleasure to have known him and to be able to call him family.  I wish all of you could have known him.  I think we all would have been better for it.

Prayer Requests

Hello everyone!
I don't have any pictures this time because I don't have a cord to connect my camera to the computer. But I am working on it! So we will have those pics of Tae and everything up so. I want to put a few videos up soon too. I have one of Tae starting to crawl. Yes, crawl, he does the army crawl when he really wants to. Like when a bottle is in front of him or a cookie or me actually! I also have one of him sitting in front of the washing machine. It keeps him busy because it is a front one and he likes to watch the clothes go around. It is so funny!
I guess I am writing this blog mainly for prayer requests. I have a few, and I don't know how many people read this, but it would be nice to have people praying for us. Well I will start with Lavar. He is not going to be playing for about 45 days. He knee is hurting him really bad and he keeps getting it checked and they don't know what is wrong. They don't think he needs surgery, but he needs to rest it. He will be doing therapy and doctors appointments etc. but God is more powerful than all those things!! He is in control, but just pray that it heals completely and that Lavar can go back to playing.
My prayer request is for adjusting. It is so hard for me. Praise the Lord I have one friend! It is just hard because I have Tae all day and when I go out to the store or the park, I can't communicate with anyone. I don't speak French and I cannot understand it! I am supposed to get a tudor to help me out a little, but until then it is very hard for me. When I go to the store and they are asking me a question and I can't understand. It gets frustrating.
The last prayer request is for Lavar and I as a family and a couple. All of our friends and his teammates are not believers. Lavar and I just want to be an example of Christ to them. They already know that we are different by our language. I was listening to gospel music in the car and my one friend asked me about it so I was able to share that I was a Christian. She said that she hated church because it is so boring and you have to act like someone died when you are there. I told her how much I love my church and how everyone is so nice and loving. So at least that is a good start. Just that we will be strong and show the love of Christ to eachother and to them.
Thank you so much for your prayers and thoughts. I would love to hear from anyone! It is always nice! Hopefully there will be some pictures coming soon!
Lavar, Natalia, and Tae